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<p>Hi--OK, now I can post. I went to this thing called "Flugtag" which is an interesting concept: home made plane-y type things that they try and fly off a platform on the river (but mostly land in the water after 50 ft). Everyone else thought it was interesting, too...the whole city was there. Too crowded to be fun.</p>
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<p>So, 20 for me this AM. It was a humid sweat bath--one of those days I should have started later and done better as the temps never really got very high. I started with the thought "I dunno if this will happen" and remembered that Voo's last run was kind of about that...20 after work. Didn't know how it would go...he sent me an email that night because we both had run some considerable miles after work. I don't still have it, but I remember him saying "I wasn't sure I could do it" or something like that.</p>
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<p><strong>This is the first time I've ever ran that far solo--</strong>no easy mental task, but also important for me<strong>. </strong> I think I underestimate at times what I'm capable of. I'm silly and anxious about running at times--need to find a way to deal with that. Beginning was OK, middle to mile to 13 ish good, the mid-middle not good (that was THE hardest part for me) and the end not bad at all. The last mile was a struggle, though and honestly, I shuffled/walked more than ran, but was <strong><em>not going to stop at 19.</em></strong></p>
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<p>Finished at an all around 11:15 pace and was happy at the end. I thought I would be sad, but actually, I felt really proud and thankful.</p>
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<p>On the run, I realized a few things since I had 3 hours and 40 minutes to think:</p>
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<p>I started running in memorial for Voo, but I finished because of the rest of you (knowing you were all out there really helped at mile 15). I think he would like that...the doing not for a memory, but because we are carrying on and living.</p>
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<p>Also, although we talk about VTFU and how strong he was, he was also a guy that had his weaknesses and his insecurities. I think he connected to the running board because we accepted him no matter what, and that's the reason I've connected to many of you as well. I like to think of the quirky parts that made him human, not just the "strong caveperson" ones.</p>
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<p>Also, I just want to thank you all for your friendship, and for your inspiration. These days, I do get asked a surprising amount about my running or for advice about it. I always give credit to this group and what you've done for me. I need to say that more than once a year.</p>
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<p>Yes, I completed my runs and races, but I truly believe I never would have even considered a marathon had it not been for you guys. Some of you are not just friends, but like family. You've seen me through a lot of stuff. I don't take that lightly. </p>
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<p>Anyway. Thanks...thanks, thanks thanks. </p>
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<p>There ya go, <strong>Voo</strong>. That one was for you. Time for beer.</p>