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Alternate Title: <b>The Worst Run Ever</b><br><br>
Okay, so, I ran this 4 mile race in 40:55. For those fans keeping track at home, yes, that is a slower pace than my current half-marathon race time. It's about the speed as my normal 5 mile training runs. I never run less than 5 miles, except in races, so I have no other training run times to compare it to.<br><br>
I had a bad run Thursday. I had an even worse run yesterday, as my chronic bronchitis decided to act up and I just wasn't in the mood. I took tons of Mucinex yesterday. The motivation, I didn't know what to do-- because I haven't been looking forward to most my workouts in quite a while lately. This morning when I woke up, my shin was in all kinds of pain. Not long ago the doctor told me I had a stress fracture but it was almost healed. I've been taking it easy. Also, my bronchitis was still acting up and I could feel the phlegm in my chest. I decide to take it easy.<br><br>
I start off and do first mile at 9:30... start coughing some. I was right... today is not going to be the race day I had been planning on.<br>
Second mile in ten flat. Figured I'd stick to that the rest of the race, finish in 39:30 and call it a day. The next two miles didn't cooperate. My shins hurt-- but that's not what was holding me back. It's like I couldn't go faster! I ran with a girl for a while, and she pulled away. That's about an unknown for me, because while I finish slow in races, I always finish faster if I'm running with someone (because my tendency is to go quiete a bit slower than I physically can at any given distance. Mental thing.) I don't get pulled away from. Yet I did. And then I got PASSED. I'm not accustomed to being passed much if at all in the latter stages of a race. (That going slower than I can thing again.)<br>
I felt like I couldn't go faster. I felt like I wanted to walk. I felt like I wanted to stop running and just sit down and not get back up ever again. I hated what I was doing. This has been popping up during my runs lately-- but during a race? I love races! That's why I go even when I have no intent of racing. But yet, I was miserable. Only time I was a little happy was when I saw GaRebelRunner.<br><br>
I finished the race in a sprint-- not only because that's what I always do (I sprint at the end of my training runs, and sprint at the end of races) but because I no longer wanted to be running.<br><br>
I then limped back to my car. Yes, limped. It would appear that I shouldn't have started the run this morning with my shins already hurting. Even when I was told I had the stress fracture, I wasn't limping. Hopefully that stops. I'll go back to the doctor next week if it hasn't. I'm sure it will though.<br><br>
I got back to the car and I just burst into tears. I sat there for five minutes crying.<br><br>
Then, I started heading home. I almost pulled into my normal route to force myself through another five miles as punishment (yes, despite the limp while walking... actually hurts worse walking than running though.) ... but I didn't have my park pass.<br><br>
And so I'm back home wondering what the hell has happened.<br><br>
I knew I haven't had motivation lately. I haven't been able to handle as much, and it's been 6-7 weeks since the mileage/intensity I like to be at-- (since the shins were hurt) But I thought I was forcing myself through enough workouts to at least maintain my fitness. My race times have been going back up, but I haven't had a case where I had such a hard time, and disliked what I was doing so much in a RACE before. There's no reason for a time this slow based on what I've been doing, even though it's less than I like to be doing.<br><br>
What is wrong with me? <img alt="sad.gif" src="http://files.kickrunners.com/smilies/sad.gif">
Okay, so, I ran this 4 mile race in 40:55. For those fans keeping track at home, yes, that is a slower pace than my current half-marathon race time. It's about the speed as my normal 5 mile training runs. I never run less than 5 miles, except in races, so I have no other training run times to compare it to.<br><br>
I had a bad run Thursday. I had an even worse run yesterday, as my chronic bronchitis decided to act up and I just wasn't in the mood. I took tons of Mucinex yesterday. The motivation, I didn't know what to do-- because I haven't been looking forward to most my workouts in quite a while lately. This morning when I woke up, my shin was in all kinds of pain. Not long ago the doctor told me I had a stress fracture but it was almost healed. I've been taking it easy. Also, my bronchitis was still acting up and I could feel the phlegm in my chest. I decide to take it easy.<br><br>
I start off and do first mile at 9:30... start coughing some. I was right... today is not going to be the race day I had been planning on.<br>
Second mile in ten flat. Figured I'd stick to that the rest of the race, finish in 39:30 and call it a day. The next two miles didn't cooperate. My shins hurt-- but that's not what was holding me back. It's like I couldn't go faster! I ran with a girl for a while, and she pulled away. That's about an unknown for me, because while I finish slow in races, I always finish faster if I'm running with someone (because my tendency is to go quiete a bit slower than I physically can at any given distance. Mental thing.) I don't get pulled away from. Yet I did. And then I got PASSED. I'm not accustomed to being passed much if at all in the latter stages of a race. (That going slower than I can thing again.)<br>
I felt like I couldn't go faster. I felt like I wanted to walk. I felt like I wanted to stop running and just sit down and not get back up ever again. I hated what I was doing. This has been popping up during my runs lately-- but during a race? I love races! That's why I go even when I have no intent of racing. But yet, I was miserable. Only time I was a little happy was when I saw GaRebelRunner.<br><br>
I finished the race in a sprint-- not only because that's what I always do (I sprint at the end of my training runs, and sprint at the end of races) but because I no longer wanted to be running.<br><br>
I then limped back to my car. Yes, limped. It would appear that I shouldn't have started the run this morning with my shins already hurting. Even when I was told I had the stress fracture, I wasn't limping. Hopefully that stops. I'll go back to the doctor next week if it hasn't. I'm sure it will though.<br><br>
I got back to the car and I just burst into tears. I sat there for five minutes crying.<br><br>
Then, I started heading home. I almost pulled into my normal route to force myself through another five miles as punishment (yes, despite the limp while walking... actually hurts worse walking than running though.) ... but I didn't have my park pass.<br><br>
And so I'm back home wondering what the hell has happened.<br><br>
I knew I haven't had motivation lately. I haven't been able to handle as much, and it's been 6-7 weeks since the mileage/intensity I like to be at-- (since the shins were hurt) But I thought I was forcing myself through enough workouts to at least maintain my fitness. My race times have been going back up, but I haven't had a case where I had such a hard time, and disliked what I was doing so much in a RACE before. There's no reason for a time this slow based on what I've been doing, even though it's less than I like to be doing.<br><br>
What is wrong with me? <img alt="sad.gif" src="http://files.kickrunners.com/smilies/sad.gif">