<p>To my dear Team LIT family,</p>
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<p>You guys are THE BEST!! </p>
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<p>I can't say enough how much your love and support has helped to pull me through the DARK moments ... when all I see are visions of my precious Gustav on the hospital table, his life completely drained from him and his little body growing cold ... when all I have are moments when I question why so much tragedy in my life, what is my purpose, what is the will to live ... and my heart and soul cry out in wretched pain too horrible to describe, and all I want to do is let go and join my mother and my son ...</p>
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<p>And then one of you contacts me, through the forum or a PM on KR, through Facebook, via my wall or email, and I am reminded that I am not suffering alone in my darkness, you are there to prop me up when I feel like falling ... and you remind me that I have another son to take care of and that you believe that we will make it through this difficult period ...</p>
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<p>I don't have any family to take care of me in Montreal, and have actually been cocooning a lot, probably too much, and only spending limited time with friends. Most of my energy is focused on just making it through to the next moment and on managing my incredible grief. Though we exist principally as "virtual" friends, your support, hugs, love and presence have been no less tangible than that of the friends I have been seeing in person. I am so incredibly fortunate ...</p>
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<p>I thank you all for your pledged miles in memory of my little Gustav, it is extremely moving (and I am bawling as I am writing this post.) I pledge to make it through another day and to give the T-man as much love and understanding as I can.</p>
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<p>love,</p>
<p>Sally</p>
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<p>p.s. After being very sick physically for over three months, I've recently started training again ... even 20 min./day is a huge victory for me! The T-man is back to school almost full-time and is working at catching up with his studies (and he's started training again too). We're both also receiving counselling, which is helping immensely. I thank you all for your financial contributions, it has helped immensely with the expensive funeral and internment costs. We have found a beautiful and tranquil little spot as the final resting place for Gustav's ashes and we will be celebrating his life in May when nature renews itself ...</p>
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