Tahoe - I don't know if I can stick to my goal ...

<p>hubby and I signed on this together on our anniversary  ... it's a vacation of a lifetime and a shared first time experience ... very looking forward to it ...</p>
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<p>I get handed an injury I hadn't banked on but am hopeful it's not going to be (much of) an issue  *fingers-crossed* </p>
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<p>our goal was set to go out and enjoy the race and do the entire thing together ...  I plan to do just that  ... but each day we get closer to the race I am finding myself getting antsy and wondering 'what if?'  ... hubby is a darned good trail/ultra runner even though he isn't as immersed in it as me (yet)  ... I know he can keep his own with me ... even at my best ... but I don't know if he knows that and I want to push it at Tahoe and see what we're made of ... all this is in hopes that the altitude doesn't do a number on us/ all else being equal I believe we can tough out the inclines/declines and milage and heat just fine!</p>
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<p>so, what I am saying/wondering is if anybody else really has difficulty going into a race/competition and not actually planning to do their best?    we have a 14 hour cut-off and could be major tourists and just take it all in, including the adult beveages I hear will be on course, lol ... but I don't think it's in me to go that route (unless my foot flares majorly and I opt to hike the whole way, hahaha)</p>
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<p>I know hubby would probably enjoy it more as a tourist ... but I also know I may never get to go west and run in the mountains again and sort of want to give it my all and 'seize the day'   *sigh*    ... so, as the race gets closer I am imposing my goals/hopes on him and he seems to reluctantly be accepting the possibility  ... but he's a go-getter too, as he proved at the HOWL at the Moon 8 hr last summer  ... 90F+  day and his first event longer than a half marathon and he kicked out 39.75 miles!!!!   he was hardcore!   (he was hardcore at his one and only half-marathon too - trained for 2 months and pulled out 1:41 after never running more than 7 miles straight 2 months prior to the race and only having run a handful of 5ks  (yes, I'm proud of him!  )</p>
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<p>I did run easy and not have a problem with it when I did Philadelphia Half Marathon with my daughter for her 18th birthday .. but I knew her limitations and she was meeting them on that day  ..  I have always been like this, not having a problem with differences in ability/training but have difficulty in not pushing ones limits on any given day to do the best you are capable of  ..</p>
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<p>anyways ... I feel a little guilty that as the race draws near I want to push it and expect hubby to stick it out with me   ... changing the gameplan, if you will ... but I really think he's probably fine with it?  maybe?</p>
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<p>WWYD???   </p>