<p>This is no surprise for most here who have followed you since Lake Placid. You are still in the hangover aftermath stage of IM. It happens. You just have let yours last longer than some others. It's not a big deal.</p>
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<p>Nerves and not "caring," if I read that right, are, in my opinion, two different things. They sometimes mix, and maybe this is the case for you. Just because you care (or do not care) about a race does not necessarily mean that you will be (or not be) nervous. If you heard me at all talk about my recent "epic journey" in the 50 Mile Ultra Marathon, you would know that this was the first race since Ironman Coeur d'Alene in 2007 that I got really nervous over. Every race since then but for maybe one or two when I got a trace of nerves, I didn't get nervous or the pre-race or even taper crazies. I trained well, knew what to expect, and was ready to take it on.</p>
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<p>So hearing that you "didn't care" about the race told me far more than the fact that there were no nerves. Nerves are merely a symptom of caring or not, of expectations and preparations. Not caring is a sign of burn out, monotony, lack of goals, or general fatigue.</p>
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<p>In order to care again, I think you need to start training with purpose again. That's when races matter, because they are tests of your level of fitness, a snap of the line, of what you have built over the past training season or weeks.</p>
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<p>That you even ask, "Do I need goals?" tells me that you are still stuck with an IM hangover. Otherwise you wouldn't ask. You would just be doing... races, training sessions, etc. So if that's where you want to be, then yeah, you need goals but you also need to commit to something. And it is hard -- very hard -- after completing something like Ironman. Trust me, I've been there. Figure out a fun challenge, be it a new one or even just beating the horse dead a little faster, and submerse yourself. Because if you're still wondering about goals and sitting there without any, then it tells me that you need something new or you are still a bit fried from all the Iron horse shit. (I say that affectionately.)</p>