I guess I'm speaking to longterm relationships, familarity breeds contempt, is it possible to know someone so deeply.<br><br>
You love the things you love about them, but also deeply ingrained is maybe a certain hate of faults, one you do not express often for the good of the relationship. Obviously.
There is so many things I love about women and that make me dizzy about them, and yet....<br><br>
There are things that just inhibit me from just diving into every time I could have a relationship.<br><br>
I could date so many girls, but as i get older I need to control more things and protect and screen myself and what I have to lose from people.<br><br>
I can't just let any random women into my life and that makes me sound like a prick but I have a life to lose as weird as it sounds, I have more then some 20 year old guy, both on an emotional and material level and I can't let some random chick in to screw me up.
So, Chele is weighing in with a yes. <img alt="smile.gif" src="http://files.kickrunners.com/smilies/smile.gif"><br><br>
yes, but not all the time.<br>
There are times you can feel both, though. However, emotions come and go....and hate is one I try not to hang on to.
I think there's your problem right there.<br><br>
Perhaps your <i>need</i>to see them as random chicks means you're overlooking the ones that won't screw you over. You want to be screwed over so you don't have to redefine anything.<br><br>
Self-fufilling prophecy, I'd say.<br><br>
Gotta love the self before you can love others, m'dear.
I guess, In my 20's I did hit and run relationships or encounters because I could control and predict what was going to happen, a brief interlude and then we both go our seperate ways.<br><br>
Now, though i really am afraid of getting into an emotional thing with somebody as nuts as me, 2 sicko's don't make a wello<img alt="smile.gif" src="http://files.kickrunners.com/smilies/smile.gif"><br><br>
Plus, I am a bit suspect of attracting women who may have agendas in addtion to just the relationship, I know that sounds paranoid.
<img alt="sad.gif" src="http://files.kickrunners.com/smilies/sad.gif"> Sorry Gish.<br>
I take the piss, but I can't say I can even understand what you're talking about it- and I feel badly for you. It can't be a nice situation.<br><br>