[jenna]

So... you are all elected.<br><br>
I got a phone call last night from a friend from high school. This guy used to be my trainer (when I modeled in college) but I met him because he lived next door to my ex BF (I've talked about him before and how I'm still in love with him). So, Mark is the xbf, Matt is the old trainer, and Chris is the other half of the Chris and Matt duo. mark, Chris and matt were all best friends, so I was around them A LOT in high school.<br><br>
Well, matt called me yesterday to try to find mark, since he moved away and lost touch, and he knows I know how to find him. So, matt was pretty upset. Chris committed suicide. <img alt="sad.gif" src="http://files.kickrunners.com/smilies/sad.gif"> He was awesome and I don't get it at all.<br><br>
So, I emailed Mark, which I never, ever do because he is married now and has a child...<br><br>
He emailed me this morning asking me for Matt's phone number.<br><br>
My world shook. Just seeing his name in my inbox made me break out in tears. <img alt="sad.gif" src="http://files.kickrunners.com/smilies/sad.gif"> For several reasons. Chris is gone. But more than that even.... I miss Mark. Still.<br><br>
WTF is wrong with me?

 

[VP of Tea]

That sounds like a complicated and difficult situation, I'm sorry you have to go through it. Hang in there!

 

[Alternative School Grrl]

The human heart is a labyrinth, my dear.<br><br>
Just embrace the tears and carry on.

 

[toe jam on crusty feet]

so much wisdom in one woman....

 

[McTortle]

Sunshine,<br><br>
There is NOTHING wrong with you.<br><br>
((((jenna))))

 

[KP]

((((Jenna))))<br><br>
you're human. nothing at all wrong with you.

 

[wanttorun100]

WTF is wrong with me - nothing - you're human is all

 

[dcoroner77]

You're just human, my dear.<br><br>
That is all. ((((((Jenna))))))))

 

[wanttorun100]

actually there are a lot of things wrong with Jenna - but this ain't one of 'em!

 

[refinnej10]

<br>
Dude.<br><br>
((((jenna))))

 

[diablita]

Worry when your emotions DON'T feel all out of whack after getting news like this.<br>
I'm sorry about your friend. <img alt="sad.gif" src="http://files.kickrunners.com/smilies/sad.gif">

 

[Hanging Jury]

1! I'm sorry you have to go through this, but the way you're handling it suggests to me you are a very good and caring person.

 

[luckylily]

{{{Jenna}}}

 

[thirtyin04]

There is absolutely nothing wrong with you. Just about everybody has a "Mark". Mine is named Jason. When I saw him this past October after almost 10 years my heart still jumped out of my chest.<br><br>
I'm sorry about Chris. <img alt="sad.gif" src="http://files.kickrunners.com/smilies/sad.gif">

 

[mrscoby78]

Yep. Mine is named Steve.<br><br>
{{{Jenna}}}

 

[drgenie]

Dude. I don't think the doors of our hearts ever fully close to that first love.<br><br>
(((((Jenna)))))